Last night I had the dream yet AGAIN.
In the dream, I'm in college and I realize it's the night before a final exam. The only problem is that I've NEVER ATTENDED CLASS. In last night's dream, I persuaded a classmate to give me notes to help me study, but they were unintelligible. Luckily, I woke up before the actual test part of the dream.
I know this is a common dream, so I googled "dream test unprepared" and got this. It basically says that the test dream is about facing a challenge in life and feeling like you're maybe not up to the task. It's about confidence and self-esteem (or a lack thereof).
Which sort of makes sense. I have a month before I go back to school. In that time, I need to completely rewrite SLIDE 2. (Well, not completely, but almost.) I really want to finish a solid rough draft before September so I can then focus on creating a brand new course that the counselors somehow convinced me to teach and prepare all my lesson plans for maternity leave, which will start in mid-December. It's a little stressful.
Also, I have the experience of my debut novel release coming up in late March. This is incredibly exciting, yet also terrifying. Just the fact that my ARCs have been printed and will begin circulating is freaking me out. I'm not sure I'm ready for this. But maybe it's like having a child, and you're never REALLY ready until it happens.
I will say this: I am so extremely grateful to have the Apocalypsies to share this experience with. We're able to talk about things that happen behind the scenes that we can't really share in public. And, even more so, I'm grateful to Megan Miranda for putting up with all my crazy emails. I'm not sure what I'd do if I had to go through this alone. So thank you, thank you, thank you, Apocalypsies, and especially Megan. I owe you chocolate.
